by Jacki Kelly
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GENRE: Contemporary Fiction
The tentacles of infidelity are insidious, running long and deep and destroying everything they touch along the way. Crystal Davis can’t shake the images and whispered conversations she overheard as a child as her parent’s relationship fell apart. As a married woman she finds herself walking in the footsteps she abhors. But once on that path, getting off is not easy and to set her life right may cost her more than she ever imagined.
I couldn’t hold back the tears. I needed to be strong, rattle off some supporting clichés I’d picked up from some sitcom I’d watched on television – everything is going to turn out okay, this is not the end of the world, a lump doesn’t mean cancer. But I had nothing meaningful to say. I should have gathered her in my arms, stroked her back and let her cry on my shoulder if that’s what she needed.
I couldn’t speak.
I couldn’t breathe.
I was frozen.
Pause and Rewind
Have you ever wished you could erase an argument you had with your husband, lover, girlfriend, sibling or co-worker? Maybe you’ve wished you could step back into time to erase something you’ve done or didn’t do. I think we’ve all hoped for a moment like that.
There comes a time in everyone’s life when they wish they could hit the pause button and go backwards. A do-over. In my women’s fiction series – The Baptiste Series – every character probably wished for one of those big red buttons that they could smack and go back to undo something in their past. But if life came with such a remarkable piece of hardware what would we learn about right and wrong, good and evil, happiness and unhappiness? Would we all walk around in a false state of bliss never having to worry about the consequences of our actions? Would we be destined to fumble through life with our pause and rewind button buried in our pockets, at the ready, always? With a reset button, there would never be any bad decision, which means we’d never have to learn and grow. A pause and rewind button wouldn’t teach us anything, and life is all about learning. I imagine there would be days when all I did was hit that magical button to erase mistakes I’d made.
There is a moment in Packed and Ready To Go when both the lead characters could have used divine intervention to untangle a mess of their own making. But if they hadn’t gone through the fire, they wouldn’t have had the experience that helped them evolve. In the sequel – Going Backwards, Crystal makes some very poor choices that leave her scorched, but by the end of the book she has the necessary tools she needed to make better choices and decisions. And isn’t that what life is all about?
In my life there are several times when I too, wish I could have paused a situation that was steering out of control, or simply erase an unpleasant moment all together. There are countless words I’ve spoken in anger that I’ve put out into the universe that I wish I could take back. There are some forks in the road where I wish I’d taken the other path. But changing any of those things would change me. I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the experiences to draw from that helped me through one dilemma or another.
If you had a magical button in your life – are you clicking or would you let your life keep on ticking?
Jacki Kelly has been writing since her fourth grade teacher made her keep a journal for a grade. Now she does it to keep track of all the fascinating and heartbreaking moments that life throws our way. Poetry, personal essays, short stories and novels have all occupied space in her heart and her hard drive.
Jacki loves to read almost as much as she likes to write. When she’s not reading or writing, she’s walking her adorable cocker spaniel or on the golf course. Her idea of bliss is squeezing all this stuff into one day. Happy Reading!
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